End of Rainbows Year

*long sigh*~ The year 2009 finally come to an end and on this 1st Jan. of 2010, I can say many of big memorable things had happened in 2009, those that made me feel great-full, those that made me cry and those that change my way of thinking. Today I'd just arrived at campus after one week of holidays back to my hometown. After nearly half a year spending hundreds of kilometers apart from home, I've finally met my family and my beloved dog. First, when I'd arrived my mother's workplace, with the eager feeling that I've never had, I called out "ma". haha, my mom was like blurred for a sec. She can't recognize me on the first sight hahaha. She said I look like a girl...sad T.T Once I get back home, I received a most welcoming wet kiss from Vicky, haha... I missed her so much. She's like a daughter to me and I know that she won't forget this owner after months. =)

-=汤圆=-

Back to my hometown, I went Kelantanese so bad until I ate one "bungkus" of nasi lemak with me bare hand and with me one leg on the chair...haha...Ahh~ home sweet home. Some of the things may have change, whether is of me that change or my hometown that change, the feeling for me to Kelantan is still the same. I manage to eat my grandfather's 汤圆. And I get to give Vicky a bath on Friday. I also met my friends and had a barbecue on the last night before I left. I had the most fun during the barbecue, they know that I'm going on the 31st, they change it to 30th night last minute because of me, huhu so touched. T.T

-=Barbecue Time!=-

The reason I said I'm tired in this passed 2009 maybe because I missed my home bad and alot of things had happen this year.

At the beginning to of the year, I was taking my license and being at home all the time. You know lar, after SPM mar... Plus knowing that NS was waiting for me on March, so I must get my license before that. Finally get my car and motor license. =)

-=Driving License=-

Then February, CNY was here, and right after 8 days of the new year, I got my 1st dog, a milky brown fluffy golden retriever I named Vicky. Thanks to my aunt who was so supportive in buying my long dreamed pet. But unfortunately, my grandma was sick and can't stand any longer with her life depends on a machine. When they decided to put grandma's life to an end by shutting off the machine, We were all went back to Kuantan to see grandma for the last time. One by one all of us went beside grandma saying the last goodbye, with the pipe poking down her throat, I can't help out to cry, my hands were shivering and I wished that she won't leave us.... It was to much for me, plus the arguments among the family members, I was speechless. I miss you grandma...

-=Vicky=-

March, I went to NS at Kem Desa Rimba, Kuala Kangsar. NS, the high point of my life, fill my life with sweet memories and some regrets. I met bunch of good friends there, I get my chance to perform on stage of my juggling and beatbox skill =P. And most unforgettable, I get my 1st relationship there. And I regret to not making things clear early and time was not being on my side that time, I din get much time with her, I miss her so much, but now I'm weak enough to let go... I miss you CF... I'm sorry...  Sorry that I din't keep my promise... Long distance relationship is not as I thought, if I was there enough for you, things could have been better....

 -=NS shirt=-

I was in Ns till 9th of June. I remember I came out early to get into form 6 on the 11th. haha.. funny thing, I change my mind after few days in form 6. I went to search for colleges in KL and finally ended up in Nottingham, the Uni that I like at the 1st visit.

July till now, spending my Uni in Nottingham, chosen foundation in engineering, which diff. from what I dream of, but the grateful thing is I met alot of nice friends here, and I like every single one of them. But of course, leaving together, meeting each other day and night, conflicts and fun stuffs sure happen now and then. I'm still happy to know all of my friends.

-=UNMC=-

By the time wriitting this post, my mood of writting just flown away...haha sorry, I am thinking of the things that once were big things of my life and still are that I can't forget...I've been through alot this year, born death, my every other 1st things... In the end of 2009, life can be full of happiness and can be full of regrets. But what's the fun of a flawless life? Life can be always different from what you wanted, life can be different just because of a chance that you let slip trough. I could have turn another corner, I could have taken another road... but life's just full of regrets, and I guess that my destiny that brings me to where and who I am now.... haizzz.. funny thing, why do human always tends to remember all the sad stuffs instead of the happy stuffs? Why does the sad memories always come stronger than the happy ones?... I hope this year, 2010, will be better...

In the end, I dedicate this song for all the people I met, I knew and I loved... "So Close" by Jon Mclaughlin