Empty

The best event of the year is about to fade away. With a blink of an eye, I was back to my home and came back to this place that I still feel a little bit unacquainted. Especially when you just dragged you self from your home sweet home to a place where silly stuffs always happen. 


Right before my long long~ train journey back to my hometown, I had a good time hanging out with Poh, Bing and Pooi. Went to Serdang Jusco for one movie and six hours of k-singing, and then, the next day two more movie we ran to. haha... it was freaking fun, I like it this way, the fun stuffs that come in rallies. After the two movie Me Poh and Bing hanged out at Kajang McD right before the train ride and had some good time chatting, haha, free wifi... woohoo. After reaching Pasir mas, I dropped by my grandpa house 1st, I ought to, you know, respect for the elder. Then just I can go to my home and meet my parents and definitely my long missed dog Vicky! After a good long lick from her, I gave her a bath, just like the way she loved to. Then~ Fuh, finally my time to rest... the whole ride back didn't have a good sleep. >.<


That night was 除夕, had a big dinner with the relatives. And the next day, 初一, this is where the joy begins, where the ang paos started running to me... haha. Had many relatives visited my humble abode. And that night, we all had steamboat, my stomach was full like hell. There was more than 15 of us but the food is still not finished...haha. The next day, 初二, it's our turn to visit other relatives place. That night, we had a barbecue pulak. This was my idea. So, I had to do most of the work, buy all the ingredient and clean up the mess... hah, whole lot of work but totally worth it.

 -=Steamboat=-

 -=Old Friends=-

After the bbq, I rushed to town to meet some of my good friends, long-time-no-see friends. We hang out at a coffee shop. LOL, every single person that met me during CNY said that I look different already. It kinda bumps me out cuz the same thing gets to you over and over again? come on man, I realized that I'm changed lar, but give me a break. >.< 
Chinese New Year, the big time of the year, of course all people love that, the new stuffs, the ang paos, the gathering... But there are some part that I'm not fond with. Like dealing with your relatives... dun wan to say much but, you know la, when you stay with your long seperated relative sure there will be some conflicts...


And back to this campus, it gave me the empty feeling again. I my self dun even know what's the cause of it. I mean I did alot of fun stuffs everyday here, hanging out with friends here but I still feel like I'm leaving a meaningless life in these fully occupied days. And at last, there's still a big emptiness that still not filled that is dangling in my heart... 

“我很想你。我想念那可爱贪玩，但又成熟乐观懂得关心人的你。但可恨的是距离和时机。这没有结局的故事后所带来的空虚，到现在都还没人来填满。。。”

Feelings

One of my friends just post a meaningful blog post, and kinda suit want I'm thinking about now...or maybe slightly...

"Feelings is such a fragile thing; with a slightest shake, it can resonate your actions.

But sometimes, people just don't realize the existence of such fragility and ends up hurting others more than they intentionally plan to.

Feelings are hard to understand, minds are hard to read.

But if fate let us meet and bonds tie us connected to each other, why can't we all take that extra mile to widen up our horizons?

Open up our boundaries, look outside the window and ponder - how far are you willing to go and withstand difficulties with people who mean a world to you?

Yes, people get into your nerves. People upset you. When that happens, you'll start feeling as if the whole world against you and nothing just seems to go well for you.

But hey, isn't that what life is all about? Nothing goes the way you want it to be. And that's the challenge we have to undertake.

The choice of paths are already laid out in front of us. All we have to do is to choose one which suits us best. There's no right or wrong in this case, but it's how we decide to live our lives to the fullest. That's what which decides who we currently are and who we want to be.

It's never too late to switch paths midway. Everyone deserves a second chance. But the question here is, are you willing to go through all the trouble of turning back?

Some people keep personal matters to themselves.

I wouldn't care less if they mean nothing to me.

But if it involves me in the scenario, don't just shut yourself up in the corner and start exploding one day. In the long run, you're the one who's gonna suffer the most.

What's wrong with opening up and sharing your thoughts? Tell me what you truly feel. Nobody's perfect - so are you, so am I.

Ignorance is bliss, yes.

But ignorance is cruel as well.

How would you feel if you were to put yourself in the shoes of the party being ignored?

Go figure."

Metaphorical speaking: "Maybe it's time for me to get down,

from this train ride... at least, just for awhile"

All this time I'd been wearing a smile for you all.

Let me BE what I'm feeling right now...

At least, just for a while...