Epiphany

It's been a long time e? din really write out whatever i wanted at my blog for a long time already, plus writing a diary was never a choice for me. Since when blogging become so a scary and uncool to me when i wrote something about my feeling? eeh! long forgotten. but i think i kinda initiated a trend of short blogging here.XP  I miss it when my blog are so "sunny" and positive and about things that happen everyday and people used to like it. Now what i heard about ppl's comments about my blog is "full of philosophy" LOL. not another philosopher wannabe anyway. XD


ANYWAY~ the main point about what to write here, that is in my mind, is... To be the last one leaving, will feel a double of emotions than that of who's not. A whee bit ...( how to say this delicately...) RELUCTANT, reluctant and sad. Being at behind packing things, switching off lights, closing all windows, locking all light etc etc..., a feeling will come up to to you, i dunno what the hell is that but it's close to sad... more or less, you know what I'm saying.

Stuffs i learned to today: (haha, sounds so formal) Send her to KLsentral for soon departure to redang Seatru volunteer thingy.She likes to run here and there and being hard to "tame" LOL long story short, i guess it's not easy to be a better man. arghh, off topic again. I was waiting at the ktm station in kl sentral with a crowd and was able to find a seat, then out of nowhere, a malay "pak cik" walk around like searching something he lost. I was blur and stupid, arghh~ i should have just stand up and let him sit on my place. I was thinking to stand up and do the right thing but i hesitate. why?! why did i hesitate? because of racism? because i don't trust much people in strange place like this big city? Because to this i regret for the whole day and got me wonder how and what this society has transformed or transformed us to be? 


By the time i was regretting and ashamed of myself, i overheard the conversation of this young malay that share his seat to this pak cik, "Nik Aziz"... saying Nik aziz, with an age of eighty something by now, that still keeping this Bandaraya Islam running, should hand over his position. What i just realized is, people are actually talking about issues in kelantan here. LOL. Kelantan, without fail, had rule by PAS for decades. Maybe it's time to have a change, a not so "islamic" change. Okay~ okay~ too sensitive to talk about.


Another thing i see is, Racism. About a scene i've seen twice this week. Involving primary school kids. What i saw and heard was this: Them kids playing hand interaction games with each other, with all the claps here claps there, saying, 公鸡，母鸡，kepo鸡，看谁送给bangkali!... I was like what~~~~ the level of hand claps games had evolved to this???!! haha. SEE~~~ we have kids being racist since young. How sad is this scene? Mostly are because of parents and peers, like the comedian ChiHo said: Even when young, mothers always tell their kids to beware of indians that will catch you and take you to sell.. LOL..  what is this~~~


That all folks, until next time, of epiphany~~ chao.