Beats and pulses

语录：普遍

There Comes A Time

Not a boring day

Went to Down Syndrome Center Lions Club of Kota Bharu today. Experience part of a society you don't see everyday. Heading there expecting to work with these special ones in packing button and thread. This kind of work is signed contract with local handcraft company to make this down syndrome center a cottage industry. This will prepare them a working opportunity, to make them able to take responsibility on task given, to introduce them working habit and also to foster their self-esteem.

haha, did you know down syndrome categories into active and autism? did you know not all down syndrome patient are with the same face that I myself use to think? haha, even some down syndrome patient also look good. It's just then mental in not well developed. Met a d.s. guy name Chi Kang, he's a local star there, LOL XD kepo much. He's one of the active one. But unluckily his brother Chi Kun also a d.s. patient with much more aggressive emotions. Chi Kun recently is not mentally stable, injured a few people in that center and even his mom. The "teacher" there decided to give him a "punishment" by suspending him from the center for a few days, in order to stable his stressfulness and also keep him from injuring others.

Played carom with bunch of them. The way they play? No rules. XD But you can't scold them, they will get crazzeyyy~~ XD and coincidentally today is a routine day. Routine day for what? routine day for local prison mates to come here to perform their community service once a week. 

No photos here bcoz i dunno why can't upload photo to blog today. LOLx check them on my fb  ^^

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超有意思MV

而第二波主打歌曲《爱情掉在哪里？》的音乐录像带，邀请到金曲奖常客黄中平导演替井柏然打造三段式故事MV，井柏然在MV里饰演一位患有失忆症的男孩，由于记忆会随着时间

­慢慢遗失，他很害怕忘记后再也想不起与女友的甜蜜回忆，为了记得相恋时美好的过程，他选择透过自拍，替自己与对方留下浪漫的画面，而MV里井柏然多场难过痛哭的画面，相信­又会让所有朋友哭红了眼。

　　井柏然表示当初录《爱情掉在哪里？》时，自己的脑海里浮现许多画面，他觉得这首歌想表达出爱情在无意之间遗失的无奈和感受，其实不论时代、年龄、性别甚至国籍，每个人都可­能会面临到爱情掉了的问题，只是当爱情掉了后，相恋时的美好画面还是值得细细品味。而拍摄过程中，一场寻找失散女友的画面，让井柏然吃足苦头。原来他顶着正中午36度的高­温，在人潮众多的西门町街头疯狂奔走，甚至在大马路上崩溃痛哭，井柏然直呼："好尴尬！"因为这是他第一次在公开场合大众面前流泪，还被经过的路人指指点点，以为他是神经­病。对此，井柏然说："大概是因为他们不够认识我，没关系，我会加油。希望可以藉由《井柏然首张同名专辑》吸引更多的观众喜欢支持我。"敬业的他更让黄中平导演赞赏万分，­直说要收他当干儿子，以后来台湾都可以住在导演家，这让自幼就由奶奶带大的井宝十分感动。

MV里除了由井柏然亲身上阵的失忆少年，另一段故事是一位在路上张贴寻狗启事的着急女生,因为那条遗失的小狗是热恋时男友送给她的定情物，她身上还有当时两人爱的刺青印记­，但在这寻找狗的过程中，不禁让她开始回想起当时双方轰轰烈烈的爱情如今掉在那里了呢？最后一段故事则是井柏然在公园巧遇一位老婆婆，老婆婆带着两份便当，凝视着远方，似­乎在等待着什么？原来婆婆的爱人因为战争一去不回，但经过这么多年后，她仍然相信爱情不会就这样掉了，还是有被找回来的一天，所以她不放弃的继续在等待奇迹。井柏然希望透­过这三段不同但都是关于爱情掉了的故事，能让更多听众在听到这首歌时，会跟他有相同的共鸣。

Something personal

People always quote a classic quote: "When there's a will, there's a way." I guess for me, it's not too late to make that as my present and future guide. Now i will keep on fighting until where it's down to faith to decide. These are all due to how childish i used to be, with zero sense of responsibility what so ever, didn't really appreciate what i have, didn't strive hard for what i dream for, what i want and what i put my heart at. Now, i know, what i should do. To dedicate myself to be a better man. Strive with my truthful heart pursuing what my heart points to, what my dreams lead to, for the sake of my self, and people i love and people who love me. I always think that i am the "nobody cares", but in reality, i am not, i'm just greedy. I am being selfish. I always think of myself as a person who would think of people's good rather than myself priory. But in REALITY, i am selfish, didn't really notice how i be myself would affects people around me. I would be a better man now with dreams to aim for, with presents and future to appreciate for and with beloved people around me. Thinking of you makes me embrace myself, less of a coward, less of  a kiddo. Now i see, thank you. No matter what happens, I will know how to appreciate now, and that six chinese words that i said will surface out to be the truth. I'll always love you.

haha, that's personal, dun take too much into account in judging me ya. Going to visit a DownSyndrom center of LEO club in KB as a volunteer for a day. Will write about that soon, see ya.

陰天的向日葵

爱上月亮的向日葵，会不会。。。久而久之~渐渐凋谢？

Perfect

Lyrics:

Oh I was perfect
For the circus
If she dared me I'd do it
Love makes you stupid
I gave it up
But I guess it was not enough
'Cos she never seems satisfied

I know I'm not perfect
But at the end of the day
Who is?
She wanted someone that's perfect,
Okay.
But can you tell me who is?

She set the bar
Just above the stars
A rocket couldn't reach it
But I still kept on reaching
She watched me try
Atleast a thousand times
If she loved me she'd stop me,
But no

I know I'm not perfect
But at the end of the day
Who is?
She wanted someone that's perfect
Okay.
But can you tell me who is?

I saw something worth my future
So wrong, so wrong.
In my mind I would find a reason ???
But I guess I wasn't wrong

I know I'm not perfect
But at the end of the day
Who is?
She wanted someone that's perfect
Okay.
But can you tell me
Who is?

Epiphany

It's been a long time e? din really write out whatever i wanted at my blog for a long time already, plus writing a diary was never a choice for me. Since when blogging become so a scary and uncool to me when i wrote something about my feeling? eeh! long forgotten. but i think i kinda initiated a trend of short blogging here.XP  I miss it when my blog are so "sunny" and positive and about things that happen everyday and people used to like it. Now what i heard about ppl's comments about my blog is "full of philosophy" LOL. not another philosopher wannabe anyway. XD


ANYWAY~ the main point about what to write here, that is in my mind, is... To be the last one leaving, will feel a double of emotions than that of who's not. A whee bit ...( how to say this delicately...) RELUCTANT, reluctant and sad. Being at behind packing things, switching off lights, closing all windows, locking all light etc etc..., a feeling will come up to to you, i dunno what the hell is that but it's close to sad... more or less, you know what I'm saying.

Stuffs i learned to today: (haha, sounds so formal) Send her to KLsentral for soon departure to redang Seatru volunteer thingy.She likes to run here and there and being hard to "tame" LOL long story short, i guess it's not easy to be a better man. arghh, off topic again. I was waiting at the ktm station in kl sentral with a crowd and was able to find a seat, then out of nowhere, a malay "pak cik" walk around like searching something he lost. I was blur and stupid, arghh~ i should have just stand up and let him sit on my place. I was thinking to stand up and do the right thing but i hesitate. why?! why did i hesitate? because of racism? because i don't trust much people in strange place like this big city? Because to this i regret for the whole day and got me wonder how and what this society has transformed or transformed us to be? 


By the time i was regretting and ashamed of myself, i overheard the conversation of this young malay that share his seat to this pak cik, "Nik Aziz"... saying Nik aziz, with an age of eighty something by now, that still keeping this Bandaraya Islam running, should hand over his position. What i just realized is, people are actually talking about issues in kelantan here. LOL. Kelantan, without fail, had rule by PAS for decades. Maybe it's time to have a change, a not so "islamic" change. Okay~ okay~ too sensitive to talk about.


Another thing i see is, Racism. About a scene i've seen twice this week. Involving primary school kids. What i saw and heard was this: Them kids playing hand interaction games with each other, with all the claps here claps there, saying, 公鸡，母鸡，kepo鸡，看谁送给bangkali!... I was like what~~~~ the level of hand claps games had evolved to this???!! haha. SEE~~~ we have kids being racist since young. How sad is this scene? Mostly are because of parents and peers, like the comedian ChiHo said: Even when young, mothers always tell their kids to beware of indians that will catch you and take you to sell.. LOL..  what is this~~~


That all folks, until next time, of epiphany~~ chao.