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在沙滩留下了脚印，在芙蓉带走了回忆，在马口领悟了友情。

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What Is This? Restart please~

Currently in Bahau now. Spending time having fun with friends, went to Port Dickson and Seremban. It was fun meeting you guys, this is what I wanted. By this time, I have some other things that I was worrying about, including my studies. Been worrying bout my calculus 1. But then, today stroke by a best news I ever heard. I brought down the calculus 2 for me also. Feels like the best. All this time, my self esteem had always been this low. Always having second thoughts. Always blaming myself not mentally strong enough.

Another thing that I want to express. " I don't have the right to do something I wish to do." Maybe I want to do it not because just to do it. Like I said, " It's not that I didn't feel, It's what I didn't show.". I maybe stupid in studies, but i'm not stupid at this. What was expected from me? I know, but, what I suppose to do? I don't have the rights. Who am I anyway? I'm only the one who get hooked on something in a middle of something. I'm a little more careful, perhaps it shows. Guys don't like to be vulnerable too. It might get too difficult if you become too vulnerable, not only for you by running the risk of getting hurt but also for the other person who might not be ready to get that close. That's why. Blah blah blah, I dun even know what myself want either. Lah~ I don't need this. What's the worst thing can happen? I have much more to learn. I just don't know how to react. I'm not comfortable in this, not casual at all. All are different from what I was and how i felt and how I be in life...

Be open, have no expectations, and do what you feel comfortable.

Mixed expression here, ignore it if don't know what this mean. Maybe I know how to live a life, not how to learn a life. Piuh~ let me release it all here bah~ Moving on now, high or low, dodging bullets or hit by bullets, I'll face it. "Smite me, oh mighty smiter! "

Miranda Cosgrove

This girl's kinda like Avril Lavigne. I like this song of hers... XD

If It's Love

Awesome awesome song, please do listen and like it. From Train, nice song other than "Hey, Soul Sister". Haha, I like it when I 1st listen in Bing's car radio in Seremban!! LOL not really enough but a nice and casual trip... Love~ the beach... too bad din get sunburned.=D

My Backwards Walk

My Backwards Walk

Frightened Rabbits

I’m working on my backwards walk

Walking with no shoes or socks

when the time rewinds to the end of May

I wish we’d never met then met today

I'm working on my faults and cracks

Filling in the blanks and gaps

When I write them out they don't make sense

I need you to pencil in the rest

I'm working on drawing a straight line

I'll draw until I get one right

So bold and dark, girl can't you see

I've done drawn a line between you and me

I'm working on erasing you

But I just don't have the proper tools

I'll get hammered and forget you exist

But there is no way I'm forgetting this

I'm working hard on walking out

My shoes keep sticking to the ground

My clothes won’t let me close the door

Cause my trousers seem to love your floor

I've been working on my backwards walk

there is nowhere else for me to go

except back to you just one last time

say yes before I change my mind say yes before I

you're the shit and I'm knee deep in it

TttTaAaA ™ ツ

Fall In ♥ Again

 You know now the R&B ain't the same already, not like back "when Luther used to sing like 'baby' and Michael made the world go crazy." The world needs to fall in love again, the world needs more love songs, where they used to romance. This song is so true. XD

Back in the day when I was younger.
I fell in love about every summer.
And I would be calling up the radio.
To dedicate my favorite song to her.
And I sung along with everything.
The words in the song, they spoke to me.
Now I need to know, where did the music go.
Cause my heart is crying out. 

I need a love song about now.
Don't need no ringtone songs now.
Please tell the DJ, slow it down.
I wanna think about my baby now.
I want a old school type of slow jam.
You know the kinda where they used to romance.
When Luther used to sing like 'baby'
and Michael made the world go crazy.
I need a 12-play, two step, kelly kinda record
I need a love song right now.


Back in the day when I got older.
The music in me had taken over.
So I wrote the songs that made the lovers dance.
Like "I'll Make Love" and "Breathe Again"
Now I want to know, where love has been.
Its just not the same, as it was back then.
And the world needs to fall in love again.
Cause my heart is crying out.


Remember when we used to slow dance.
And everybody used to electric-slide.
We'd be partying the whole night.
And we took it home,oh baby.
Rock the boat to the radio, don't ya' know, I miss it all right now.
Cause my heart is crying out.

I need a love song about now.
Don't need no ring tone songs now.
Please tell the DJ, slow it down.
I wanna think about my baby now.
I want a old school type of slow jam.
You know the kinda where they used to romance.
When Luther used to sing like 'baby'
and Michael made the world go crazy.
I need a 12-Play, two step, Kelly kinda record (Oh)
I need a love song right now.

Feel The Heat!!!

FIFA!!! Which country do you support?! =D

     AFC – Asian Football Confederation in Asia and Australia
     CAF – Confédération Africaine de Football in Africa
     CONCACAF – Confederation of North, Central American and Caribbean Association Football in North America and Central America
     CONMEBOL – Confederación Sudamericana de Fútbol in South America
     OFC – Oceania Football Confederation in Oceania
     UEFA – Union of European Football Associations in Europe.

Official FIFA World Cup 2010 Theme Song!!! =D

Musical Moment

Since the last minute DJ vacancy  for me in high school prom night and the disco thingy at YYY's brother, YPY's party, I'd been thinking. Music mix list of your own is important!! haha... You know, when people wanted to dance, have fun, or need music for some special moment, you just realize that you are lack of any nice songs to play. That kinda sucks, man! So, after that prom night, I'd been collecting nice music for specific moments, DJ tools for intro and briefing, and sound effect all sorts. But then, I still dunno how to use those music editting programs. I think playing them is good enough! haha XD


Wooh! Talking about songs! FIFA World Cup is here man!! Africa!! Four years once!!! This is their official song. Check it out! =D

Second Thoughts

Changing mind,

Changing direction.

Who am I dare to mention,

I'm just another redundant.

Being comfortable is important,

Another person had made this realization.

I'm just scare to meet another achy foundation,

So here I go just being comfortable with this recognition.

LOL! XD random post,lame...I also don't know what it means.haha, hope it ryhmes. =D

*P.S. I'm too bored.XD

Fast Trip

2^nd of June, me and my dad traveled 6 hours from Pasir Mas to Kuantan to visit my granpa, who happen to be in “half dead” condition. Right side of his body can’t move, which include that his right brain, that’s why affecting his talking ability. My uncle located him at an elderly care center in Kuantan.

*Sigh, seeing grandpa like this, a sudden sour feel will rush to my nose. He can hardly utter a word. When I see that he can’t say out what he wanted to say, plus we can’t understand, his frustration of that makes me feel one kind. Seeing the other old people there, I feel funny and, at the same time, pity to them. Can you imagine that when you can’t move or can’t speak and then you have to excrete yourself in a diaper. Furthermore, can you stand of being sitting there from day to night doing nothing? There’s one old lady actually say that she’s very surfer from boredom, because she actually can’t move and being put on a chair from morning to night! Some are just rambling about silly things like their sons will come to fetch them back home, they’re just there for few days, which happen to be that they’d already been there for years!! How pity is that? The way they say it, is funny, but in a sad way…

And the food they eat! OMG, they hate them more than anything, however no choice but to eat. They are served with porridge and vegetables and some meat that have been blended, imagine banana milk shake, but instead of banana it’s made of porridge and it’s tasteless. That’s why my aunt brings our own porridge there, coz luckily my grandpa still can digest that. The others, they are served the blended porridge thingy because that’s the only thing they can eat.

Looking at my grandpa’s swelled hand and leg, plus hardly express what’s in his mind, I feel scare. Even my grandpa himself was scared also. He said that his hand is swelled, just like the way grandma did before she passed away. So, he was a little worried about that. XD Now that everyday massages his hand and leg, hoping after when he can walk, he’ll be back to his house again. They say that acupuncture actually can cure stroke one. So, wish you get well soon, grandpa! =)

3^rd of June, before starting a 6-hours journey again back to home, me and my dad revisited grandpa once more. Just like yesterday, the old lady kept saying about her sons in Singapore XD. Then there’s one old couple where the husband kept asking his wife to find taxi for them to get them away from there. The wife’s thinking is still, that’s why showing abit frustration against her husband. Sad ain’t it? They’re just too bored! After awhile, there’s a son sending his mother here for a day care. We chatted with him. There’s one thing I’m very agree to him, he said, we all (includes me and you) a heading to a same place, a stage of our life journey, it’s just depend on whether we got the qualification to reach there or not. He said exercise is important, avoiding us to get very ill when we’re old and prepare us to get to that stage. That’s what happened to his father who died too fat 20 years ago…  Since then, he lost 30kg and 1000 sit ups and dumbbell-ing every morning, he said. LoL~

Today we get grandpa the MP4 with the golden melodies downloaded, hope he should able to use it. Before going, he tapped on my shoulder. The look, the look he looked at me, I just smiled… and I nudged my head, assuming that he’s telling me to study well (as he still can’t speak)…

On the way home, we stopped by Kuala Terengganu for lunch at the Kampung Cina there. Fuh~ crowded with cars! The china street is quite happening, with the colourful old buildings. Gosh, I wish I had my camera! =D

1st of June

一个人只有一个心脏，却有两个心房。

一个住着快乐；一个住着悲伤。

不要笑得太大声，不然会吵醒旁边的悲伤。