灰色日记

曾经经历的，曾经感受的，曾经面对的，现在面对的，现在所付出的，现在所感受的。
没人知道，没人明白，没人了解。
一个人的所有残局，一个男人，只能呐喊，心情要放哪里？

28/9 早上 8：30，刷牙，冲凉，早餐，
带上微笑面具，面对灰色世界。

拼湊

从前有一个渔夫爱上了一个女孩,但是女孩总是把心藏在海底，渔夫怎么样都打捞不到，只好把自己变成一位厨师，他试着把女孩的心做成一道甜点。

再美好的东西--也有失去的一天。
再深的记忆--也有淡忘的一天。
再爱的人--也有远走的一天。
再美的梦--也有苏醒的一天。
该放弃--绝不挽留。
该珍惜--绝不放手。
宁愿笑着流泪，也不哭着后悔。

Sea Shells

"Listen to the sea shells,

             Listen to the memories"

Terung仔2011

Description:

Our lives are shaped by our experiences. Our experiences are preserved in our memories. If you could look through a window that softened the edge between reality and fiction, what would you want to see? What would you want to remember? 

Sound of the ocean, kept in the shells, like memories. I love the ocean. The beach, can be representing metaphorical scenes for both happy and sad. The sunrise and the sunset, captured, in the shell.

For me now, i saw something in the shell. For one single arbitrary moment. I've gathered enough courage to whisper something in her ear. Something I always known but never told her, holding my breath only makes my heart beat faster. and then,... doesn't matter. The edge between reality and fiction is blurred. In reality now, she...

She looks at me for the first time... differently, but with the same eyes that I felt in love with...

A story based on reality or a story based on fiction. Maybe one day, fiction can become reality.

Stairway to Heaven

This one is the classic of the classic. Released in the late 1971. one of the greatest rock songs of all-time. 


"This song makes me wanna strip naked, burst out of my window, free fall 28 floors, faceplant in the snow, make a snow angel mixed with my own blood, shiver from the cold, get hypothermia, DIE, go the pearly gate, say wuzzup to Jesus, do our secret hand shake, look for Buddha, find him, have him reincarnate me into a frog, meet a princess, kiss her, turn into a prince, order my subjects to bring me a computer, listen to this song again, cry myself to sleep. Wake up.. Repeat." XD

" I'm not some top 40 song, easily digestible. I'm complex, and require multiple listens. I'm Stairway to Heaven."

 Ted Mosby

Colors

Learn alil' bit of something yesterday from my friend, something can help you to avoid some awkwardness and, you know, at least to know.

Islamic praying schedule (dunno how to name this obviously LOLxD)

Subuh (in english means dawn) -- 6.00am-7.00am
Zuhur -- 1.30pm-4.30pm (it depends on the sun they say,starts when it's slightly crooked away from top of your head)
Asal -- 4.30pm-7.30pm
Maghrib -- 7.30pm-8.30pm (this is when they open fast, it also said to see the weather to open fast, when the sun is down but the sky is still not darken)
Isyak -- 8.30pm-6.00am


It's been over half a month since islam friends start fasting, so, respect and understand. bye :)

The Quest of Physics

A force in nature governed by laws as real as the laws of gravity. The rule of Quest Physics goes something like this: 

If you're brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you. 

Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.

Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts, and you are the slave to your emotions.

She looks at you like you're someone never met before, much less someone once loved with high passion. The irony is, you can hardly blame anyone. I mean, check yourself out. You're a pathetic mess, unrecognizable even to your own eyes.

But you love her?

So love her.

But you miss her?

So miss her.

 Send her some love and light every time you think about her, then drop it.

People always fall in love with the most perfect aspects of each other’s personalities. Who wouldn’t? Anybody can love the most wonderful parts of another person. But that’s not the clever trick. The really clever trick is this: Can you accept the flaws? Can you look at your partner’s faults honestly and say, ‘I can work around that. I can make something out of it.’? Because the good stuff is always going to be there, and it’s always going to pretty and sparkly, but the crap underneath can ruin you

To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life.

I thank God for FEAR because for the first time, I'm afraid the person next to me will be the one who wants to leave...

"Do not apologize for crying. Without this emotion, we are only robots." 

from Eat Pray Love

Elizabeth Gilbert

it's time

It's time for what? -  it's time to go back to uni. Going back uni so early? - resit during august whole month. thick and thin throughout my summer. yep, my summer is kinda over. My current focus will be ich, then acp, pef, hmt and finally mpc. four one-hour tests and ich is for two hours. It's been a super fun two months that i had for summer. Compare to last boring summer days i mean.

Let's see, first thing first, my driving skill, improve drastically than i imagine. Been driving around nearly everyday and drove with loads of different people. That brings me to other fun stuffs i can do since. First, it gives me freedom, to much of it maybe, been scolded for the petrol bill. LOL XD. after all the money buying a new laptop, due to frequent break down the old one.

I went to a downsyndrom centre as a volunteer spontaneously, work as a half of a primary school librarian voluntarily ( help out = no salary XD). Badminton every monday, that's my favorite part. and my badminton skill is kinda improved. erhem~ haha. Gym too. I tried a super fun job as a mascot, loved and terrified by kiddos. and most importantly, friends, old or new, i'm connected.

Most memorable, being a mascot. Who does that actually, haha, crazy yesman like me. It's kinda feel nice though, like wearing a cute mask and evryone adores you, wanna get close to you, especially kids. At one point i think imma cry, kids can be just the warmest. :) What a wonderful experience.

Fast mixed with new friends

 In mascot and with two nice asst.XD

view from inside, you can only see kids. XD 

Sampat primary kiddos

Meanwhile...

Something i ate, aka food for thought, haha, in this summer. Do whatever you want, whenever you can, hesitation brings you no where fun. My gemini o-blooded fren ( yeah, i know you're reading XD) has a quote, "做罢了or去罢了~", it may bring you surprises, but not for evrything though, haha. Maybe we're just young enough to say. Learned and changed my self, (my thinking and my lifestyle) through books and movies too. One important "see through" i get from a movie called 500 days of summer, through a quote that says:

  " If Tom had learned anything... it was that you can't ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. Coincidence, that's all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence... Tom had finally learned, there are no miracles. There's no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be. He knew, he was sure of it now. " 

But I know, when "Summer"'s gone there's always "Autumn". Maybe I am right about fate, about meant to be, but maybe i'm just not right about the person.